[ Poetry ] Damned For The Forever
You don't get a second chance.
I finally dug out all my old poems from Google Docs. I was planning on publishing this as a poetry book but I think it’s better to share some curated “best ones” here. Enjoy!
DAMNED for the Forever
by R. Carnie Littlefield
Date: I want to say maybe around 1999?
I'll be damned forever, the way I live my life, to make bad decisions and be in my strife. Because it's mine, you see, and I've every right To live in liquid lanterns in my sight. Leave me to the boldness in my dreams, Never waking to the same, it seems. Amber moments blurry memories made I fear, Anything to forget the pains of "Here." I'll be damned forever, the way I keep on thinking, about how each day, my soul may keep on sinking deeper and deeper into an empty space until every glance of a mirror misses my face. Leave me to the boldness in my dreams, Never trusting to the same, it seems, to sunlit hours where I'm the hero of the day. If only one would stop by, a kind word to say. Instead, amber moments blurred beyond thought, feeling as though hope is naught. I'll sit in my cups thank you very much, aching for a momentary touch. I'll be damned forever for the negativity, that holds me like the Theory of Relativity. Weighed down and mired in my decisions, Gravity a welcome fellow in my exhausted visions. Once I was homefull but now I'm homeless folk, the Universe playing on me the ultimate joke. Shadows come and go, and I do wonder if they see all rags and filth or perhaps, the man under. I suppose I'll be damned for Forever. Oh how I wish I hadn't been ever-so-clever wasting youth as if it was endless as I sit here final moments leaving breathless. Goodnight sweet liquid lanterns in my sight, May someone leave my grave a flower in the night.
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Love,
R. Carnie Littlefield
Littlefield Log
March 16th, 2025
